Rant: Totally confused

[24forever]

My QLC seems to stem from the fact that I have no idea where I am right now. I mean, geologically I'm in this fantastic area, but I don't know if I'm an adult or a kid. I feel like both. Some of my friends are just enjoying their lives and being carefree, others are getting married. I don't know where I fit in the mix.

This is causing me major stress, and I don't know why. My IA gets frustrated with me b/c I'm so stressed out. I don't know how to not stress over it. I think things are going ok, and then I get upset about something stupid. The worst part is I feel like I'm going to drive him away b/c of my insanity and I've sort of had that happen with a BF in the past, and I don't want to do it again. I'm thinking about therapy, but I've done it in the past and I don't want to do it again.

[tina1979]

I don't know if I'm an adult or a kid. I feel like both. Some of my friends are just enjoying their lives and being carefree, others are getting married. I don't know where I fit in the mix.
I feel confused sometimes especially since I have been married and am going through a divorce. I sometimes wonder how I fit into the scheme of things too. (((hugs)))

[winneythepooh7]

I know what you mean. Now that I am working f/t doing what I am doing, I think back to grad school when some wise professors said that SW's burn out and want to get out of the profession altogether after a few years. It's sad to think now that I paid all that money for grad school and can't see myself doing this forever. And I have no clue what else I could be doing which is also a major stressor for me.

ETA: I also drive my boyfriend nutty I think, well, I know ;). He has told me constantly that if we do get married, I MUST quit my job. He said I can still be a SW just not with the population I am working with.

[24forever]

I don't even know what's up with me. Sunday we did the AIDS walk and then I took a nap while he hung out with his little bro who we were taking care of. Then when I woke up we were supposed to go to a BBQ, but I knew we needed to run errands b/c we were out of food (grocery list a mile long) so I stayed, but I sort of gave him crap about going. Now in my head I know I shouldn't have done that b/c I'm sure we could've lived if we had waited to go to the stupid store, and I could've gone with him. But I feel like I have to get this stupid stuff done for some reason instead of just having fun. :googly: