Feeling Out of Place

[firefreedom]

This past year has been so tumultuous for me, I don't know where to start. I have seen how cold and cruel the work world can be, where everyone is out for him/herself and money. Where people regress back to high school and judge you for your looks, job, money, car, who you hang out with, etc.

Feeling stifled by my jobs, hating the entire eight hours at work, feeling my creative edge completely disappear. Seeing that what I really want to do in life will not pay the bills.

Comparing myself to my friends, who seem to have it all together. Feeling a hurt in my heart because all I want to be in life is a kind person who will make the world a better place. All I want is to help people to like themselves. All I want is to be real, true to myself and others. I'm hurting because the real world doesn't care about those things. But I have learned that people on an individual level, once you get close, really do care about those things.

I have learned that meditation and writing in a journal help me so much. This website is helping me a lot too! I hope all of you are using your experiences to make yourselves stronger, more empathetic, and knowledgeable about yourselves. Don't let this phase break you, because nothing can break you unless you let it.

[Anonymous]

Do what makes you the most happy in life and the rest will follow. yeah, it will be hard. But, how much more proud of yourself will you be, if you are doing what you enjoy and believe in.

[Anonymous]

I understand. My co-workers are trying to make my life hell. I feel like I am back in high school--everyone is very judgemental.I try to put effort forth to get along and be cival, but when someone doesn't like you (for whatever reason) sometimes you can't do nothing but accept it and move on. I also want to make a difference in the world, but unfortunatly the field I am in(vet medicine) can attract and magnify very unpleasant personality traits of many in this field i.e. uptightness, moodiness, intolerance for ANY mistake, arrogance, etc., etc., etc. I have paused at the crossroads of my life and decided not to run away anymore. I love what I do, but it is a shame that my co-workers make it so difficult for me to pursue my dreams.I have deceided to make the best of the situation, to continue being pleasant to them and let them pout and sulk if they wish. I am tired of letting others dictate my mood and life. Thanks....I feel better.

[Anonymous]

Vet medicine? Gosh, I thought you were going to say law (very cuttroat) or finance. I had thought once of being a vet (dog bites, mean owners) and thought people who love animals, treat others kindly. Try to go to another office, yours sounds seriously disfuntional.