Feeling like a loser

[Anonymous]

I'll be 26 in December and I am full on in a QLC. My situation is different than many though. I didn't graduate high school. My mother, on one of her freak outs decided that I would never graduate and pulled me out of high school. I did get a GED but that was in 93 and I haven't done anything since then. I went to school for a while, but I wasn't ready to do it so I didn't finish. I've worked a stream of call center jobs. I think I'm ready to go back to school but it is SO overwhelming. Can't afford it, can't get a work schedule to coincide w/school I'm getting to a dangerous place with my depression and I'm not sure where it will lead.

[Broadway93]

Believe me, you are not alone. The one thing I have learned in my 24 years on this earth is that if you really want something, you can make it happen. No one ever said it was easy and the road may be long and winding, but if you want to go back to school then you can do it.<br>
I worked a full time job and went to college full time because my parents couldn't afford to send me through college. I worked Monday through Friday, 9:00-6:00 and then rushed up to my school so that I could sit in class from 7:00-10:00 every night, followed by going home and doing homework. Believe me, it was far from easy and far from fun but I wanted an education and I needed to work.<br>
You don't have to go back to school full time, you can start out part time and take only a few easy classes to ease yourself back into it and gradually work your way up from there. Of course its overwhelming and scary, college is intimidating and so is making that first step, but if you want it, you can do it.<br>
I hope this helps you and remember, you aren't alone. Please continue to let your feelings out on these boards. They are extremely therapeutic, in a strange way. Take care and remember, to move a mountain you have to start with the first stone, no matter how small it is.!<br>
Andrea

[Heatherene]

Just a little encouragement...
My mother went to college when she was 30. While she was in school, her husband died. She worked two jobs, saving every cent to put herself through school. A couple of years later, she met and married my father. She had me when she was 34. And then she graduated. I figure if she could manage school through all that, anyone can.
Its not an easy road. If it were, then where would be the pride of finishing. College isn't necessarily about intelligence, its a matter of tenacity.
If its worth it to you, you'll do it.