perfectjinx
10-29-2005, 05:26 AM
Yesterday my sister and I were having one of those weird conversations that I find myself having with her. We discussed life: the life we are having, the life that we should have, and the life we know we will most probably end up leading.
When I started talking about the things I want to do with my life, for some reason I remembered a question my professor asked me back in school: "when was the last time you were truly happy?” I remember him staring at me and me looking away. Just telling this story to my sisters made me teary. Again I looked away from her and this time I allowed myself to cry.
This was when I really realized that I am having a crisis. Maybe a mini depression too.
I wonder when will I be able to actually do something about this whole situation. I know I will end up pointing fingers, at my family for sure, but I wonder are they really to blame? Or do I just want to believe that I am a victim of theirs?
Sorry. I got carried away... There is no point to this post but I just felt I needed to see this. Maybe sending it out will help me cope with it.
When I started talking about the things I want to do with my life, for some reason I remembered a question my professor asked me back in school: "when was the last time you were truly happy?” I remember him staring at me and me looking away. Just telling this story to my sisters made me teary. Again I looked away from her and this time I allowed myself to cry.
This was when I really realized that I am having a crisis. Maybe a mini depression too.
I wonder when will I be able to actually do something about this whole situation. I know I will end up pointing fingers, at my family for sure, but I wonder are they really to blame? Or do I just want to believe that I am a victim of theirs?
Sorry. I got carried away... There is no point to this post but I just felt I needed to see this. Maybe sending it out will help me cope with it.