Phoenixx
11-06-2005, 08:46 PM
Hello all,
I've been a long time reader of the forums, but never did decide to actually post anything until now. I've got to get it out - *sigh* Long story short, I'm 27, married with a kid; I've recently got into a BIG fight with my mom - yelling, screaming, drama all over the freaking place, and now I can't stop being depressed. It all started with her trying to make me feel guilty for not wanting to continue to let my 22 year old sister "Lee" live with me (she's lived with me since before my baby was born who just turned 3 years old). Lee has kidney disease and my mom wants someone to be with her although her kidneys should be healthy for several years yet if she keeps up a good diet and exercise. I was trying to get mom to help take care of her, but I know my stepdad doesn't want Lee to live with them so Mom's stressing out and trying to guilt me into keeping her so she doesn't have to talk to him about it. I got mad at her for not doing something about the child abuse that my stepdad put me and my sisters through all our lives not to mention how he treats her and my little sis still there and why won't she go why won't she care more about her children than her sh***y husband? I am really sorry for saying (screaming) hateful things at her, and I just want us to be on speaking terms again. I don't like calling her house because I feel like her husband is listening all the time, and it just sucks. I'm trying hard to let it go, because I know that she's been through this with my other sisters (a big fight) and she said some really mean things to them too and eventually they made up. So I'm hoping that it'll just take some time and maybe she'll make up with me too. The thing is I feel like she likes me the least of all her daughters and I keep dwelling on the fact that she seemed so quick to get aggressive with me and cut me off, but she continues to live with an abuser who treats her like sh**. I figure if she'd rather have her husband than a daughter and beautiful granddaughter it's her loss, but I'm having a hard time not dwelling on the whole stupid situation.... Thanks if you read this far. Take care all.
I've been a long time reader of the forums, but never did decide to actually post anything until now. I've got to get it out - *sigh* Long story short, I'm 27, married with a kid; I've recently got into a BIG fight with my mom - yelling, screaming, drama all over the freaking place, and now I can't stop being depressed. It all started with her trying to make me feel guilty for not wanting to continue to let my 22 year old sister "Lee" live with me (she's lived with me since before my baby was born who just turned 3 years old). Lee has kidney disease and my mom wants someone to be with her although her kidneys should be healthy for several years yet if she keeps up a good diet and exercise. I was trying to get mom to help take care of her, but I know my stepdad doesn't want Lee to live with them so Mom's stressing out and trying to guilt me into keeping her so she doesn't have to talk to him about it. I got mad at her for not doing something about the child abuse that my stepdad put me and my sisters through all our lives not to mention how he treats her and my little sis still there and why won't she go why won't she care more about her children than her sh***y husband? I am really sorry for saying (screaming) hateful things at her, and I just want us to be on speaking terms again. I don't like calling her house because I feel like her husband is listening all the time, and it just sucks. I'm trying hard to let it go, because I know that she's been through this with my other sisters (a big fight) and she said some really mean things to them too and eventually they made up. So I'm hoping that it'll just take some time and maybe she'll make up with me too. The thing is I feel like she likes me the least of all her daughters and I keep dwelling on the fact that she seemed so quick to get aggressive with me and cut me off, but she continues to live with an abuser who treats her like sh**. I figure if she'd rather have her husband than a daughter and beautiful granddaughter it's her loss, but I'm having a hard time not dwelling on the whole stupid situation.... Thanks if you read this far. Take care all.