another frustrated law student

[snarky]

I posted a week or two ago about my glorious failing grade in PR - and how 20 of my classmates are in the exact same boat as I am. And even tho I realize the complete absurdity of failing 1/3rd of the class, I am still spinning from it.

I'm still beyond disappointed by that grade and don't know HOW to deal with it, but even beyond that, I'm starting to have my doubts.

I'm still pretty sure that I want to practice law (NOT at a huge firm - I want to work for the gov't), but I've never felt SO inadequate. I'm in my second year of law school and in the bottom half of the class - not ALL the way at the bottom, but probably at the 30% mark. Its beyond frustrating to me and makes me wonder if I'm really cut out for this. I study my ass off ... for what? A slew of C+'s and maybe a B or two???? This absolutely sucks. I hate that I have another year and a half to be sub-par ... I hate that I'm going to have to live with these grades for the rest of my life. I've never felt so stupid.

For the first time ever, I'm doubting my decision to go to law school, doubting whether I want to be a lawyer, doubting whether I even CAN be a lawyer. Knowing how my brain works, and knowing how psyched I am about the internship I have this summer, I'm pretty sure that its not that I don't actually want to do this ... its insecurity based on my poor performance in school.

I'm so frustrated ... disappointed ... its awful. When I strated LS I promised myself that I wouldn't get caught up in the competitiveness of the whole experience, and I did amazingly well with that in my first year. But now, for some reason, my slightly below the curve grades are NOT ok with me. I'm falling prey to the "Class rank is EVERYTHING and if you're in the bottom half, forget it - you might as well drop out NOW" mentality. I hate this.

I don't even feel like I can enjoy my winter break ... I don't feel like I EARNED the right this semester to sit back and relax.

I'm just ranting ... I don't know what to do ...

[yankeeyosh]

{{{{snarky}}}}


There's an old joke that asks:

"What do they call the person who finished last in his class in medical school?"

"Doctor"

I found out the hard way that grades aren't everything. I mean, yeah, right now it would look nice to get a 4.0 or something close to that, but in the real world, no one cares. I guess the bigwig law firms may look at your transcript, but I would venture to say that the vast majority don't really care...as long as you pass your classes and pass the bar. I would guess people like WB and lawyagirl would have more input into this. But as long as you have an interest, you should do fine.

[lilyflower]

This sounds like a case for WeirdBrake...