emotional issues with food

[baby_gurl0604]

I posted this on another forum but thought it might be good to post it here too. For some reason, right now I can just not get started with a weight loss plan. Even the thought of being really skinny and beautiful doesn't motvate me that much. I'm not like huge or anything but i could just look better. I just don't know what my deal is...it's like I sabatoge myself all the time by eating too much. I put in all this hard work by working out and buying healthy foods (See the weight watchers post), and then just blow it on a pint of ice cream or something. Consciously I know I don't even want it, but I eat any way because the urge is so strong. I think I have emotional issues with food to deal with...I guess anyone else who has dealt with this knows what i'm talking about. I seriously think food is like my drug and I need to detox, lol! Maybe I should start doing real drugs and I wouldn't feel this way (jk). I have actually tried smoking before just to distract myself from eating...has anyone else ever experienced this type of thing or am I just crazy? Ugh I feel like one of those people who goes on Dr Phil or something...

[biodork]

I sorta have the same problem, I just can't "diet". When I do, I get really depressed because I end up depriving myself of foods I love, and then I blow the diet. So what I've been doing is just trying to cut down on the portions of food I eat, and still make myself good dinners that I like to eat and every once in awhile have the junk. Or I'll try to buy healthier desserts, like frozen yogurt or I discovered this tasty strawberry yogurt/cool whip recipe. Even fruit juice bars are good. Something I can have after dinner as a treat.

I also cannot go to a gym and exercise unless I'm in a group or something. So I've found some fun exercise dvd's that I like doing and I'm also a nerd so I like playing dance dance revolution (which by the way is GREAT cardio :) )

Another thing I've tried doing is every time I feel hungry I go get a glass of water and keep refilling it until the urge is gone. That helps too. While I'm at work I only bring myself a small amount of snacks and bring no cash, so once I'm out of snacks there's no way for me to attack the vending machines.

I hope that helps!

[chicagogirl]

I recently read a book on intuitive eating, and I loved it! It's based on the idea of learning to listen to your body and recognizing emotional eating.

[RedAces]

when thing that i found that helped me alot was that when i go to the store to buy all my "healthy" food, i will usualy buy a few things that are "bad" for me but that i realy like....when i feel the urge to dive into junk food than i do, sometimes i go overboard but more and more often i am finding that i am starting to controle how much junk food i eat....now it seems like eating one bowl of ice cream or a good portion of Doritios will cure my fix :D

[Raquel]

I had an eating disorder in the past and so food is a drug for me as well. One thing I never hear people acknowledge is that eating disorders can change, maybe because it's rare or something. I was just like you at first, an emotional eater a little overweight. One day my compulsive overeating turned into anorexia. So just becareful.

One thing that I have found to help me out is first accepting myself the way that I am. This is my body and I have to live with it and I can't change it but I can learn to accept it the way that it is.

Then finding an outlet to let my emotions out instead of starving myself or overeating. Some people like to write, draw, find something that you like to do to release what is going on inside of you instead of eating a piece of cake. When you have those urges think about what's going on around you and how you're feeling at that moment. Maybe draw a picture or write out what you're feeling. Maybe what you actually are feeling is hunger instead of something emotional.

Then when I'm hungry I look at my hunger on a scale from 0 to 10. 0 being my stomach is completely empty and 10 being completely full. Never let your hunger reach a zero and never eat up to a number 10. Eat when you are at about a 3 and stop when you are at about a 7. Think about what you would like at a meal whether it be chicken or whatever. Maybe it is that cookie that you want at your dinner.

[tdko]

If you have trouble finding motiviation, I'd recommend Weight Watchers. I know a lot of people in their program, and the one thing they all say is that it's easier to address your issues and get motivated when you're in a group setting. My mom and my sister are both in WW programs and they love it. It's also the #1 rated weight loss program by doctors.

I know, I sound like a commercial. :p But it's a good program and I think they offer a lot of positive stuff.

[wordsmith]

It is a good program. I don't get THAAAT much outta meetings, because they're full of a lot of people not my peers, as it turns out, and they also meet on a night that coincides with my deadline, so I can rarely stay past weigh in. But I like the flex points program.

[SmilesSoSweet]

I am slowly getting away from emotional eating. Believe me it's not easy. My emotional eating also has to do with my self-esteem and my family's influence on me as I was growing up and up until now. It was the constant, wow, you're getting fatter, how big are you now, etc. type of crap that I had to go through with my family (especially my dad and his brothers) that food ended up making me feel better even though I knew it was healthly to eat junk food after junk food.

I've posted on here already that I'm now keeping a food journal. So far its helping me a lot. I don't want to eat something I shouldn't be I know I have to write it down. I'm also working out - I'm starting out slow, too - so that should help out.

Good luck!

[baby_gurl0604]

[QUOTE=Raquel]

One thing that I have found to help me out is first accepting myself the way that I am. This is my body and I have to live with it and I can't change it but I can learn to accept it the way that it is.
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Yeah, it's hard for me to accept myself the way i am, though. Growing up it was pretty much igrained in my head that looking good is really important. My mom was a professional dancer/fitness instructor and struggled with an eating disorder herself during the years i was growing up. My grandma was a model and constantly got on us about our eating. In high school, I got so much more praise and attention from guys when I was thinner than the times when i was a little heavier. It's just been such a strong influence in my life...and now, I feel like I'm just a disappointment to everyone, especially my family, because i'm not as thin and in shape as I could be. I still look good, but I could be so much better and every time I look in the mirror I am reminded...as mom once said, "I think you look good, but you would look GREAT if you lost a couple pounds"...

[lilyflower]

Yeah, it's hard for me to accept myself the way i am, though. Growing up it was pretty much igrained in my head that looking good is really important. My mom was a professional dancer/fitness instructor and struggled with an eating disorder herself during the years i was growing up. My grandma was a model and constantly got on us about our eating. In high school, I got so much more praise and attention from guys when I was thinner than the times when i was a little heavier. It's just been such a strong influence in my life...and now, I feel like I'm just a disappointment to everyone, especially my family, because i'm not as thin and in shape as I could be. I still look good, but I could be so much better and every time I look in the mirror I am reminded...as mom once said, "I think you look good, but you would look GREAT if you lost a couple pounds"...

Yeah, that's the kind of crap that leads to eating disorders.

[Raquel]

Yeah, that's the kind of crap that leads to eating disorders.


I completely agree with that type of thinking leads to eating disorders. My grandmother was just like yours when she ridiculed you for your weight. My grandmother always used to call me fat all the time and I wasn't really even fat. She always praised everyone and was proud of everyone and introduced them as her grandchildren but when it came to me its like she took her anger out on me or completely ignored me. Everyone in my house has black completely straight hair and my hair came out light brown and curly and she ridiculed me for that. Something I had no complete control over. The only time she said that I was pretty was when I was anorexic and she told me I had a beautiful body shape. I've learned to deal with those issues. I don't really care what they think of me anymore because fitting into their idea of what I should be made me unhappy. It made me so unhappy that it led me into an eating disorder. Everyone in my house is weight obsessed and perfectionist. In my house appearance is everything. I learned to ignore them and their thinking and tune out and do my own thing. I also learned to accept that fact that I don't have to be perfect all the time. I learned that no one is going to cheer me on except for myself. The 18th of every month I celebrate the fact that I beat this eating disorder another month no one else celebrates with me. It's something that I achieved and something I'm proud of in myself.

[baby_gurl0604]

I completely agree with that type of thinking leads to eating disorders. My grandmother was just like yours when she ridiculed you for your weight. My grandmother always used to call me fat all the time and I wasn't really even fat. She always praised everyone and was proud of everyone and introduced them as her grandchildren but when it came to me its like she took her anger out on me or completely ignored me. Everyone in my house has black completely straight hair and my hair came out light brown and curly and she ridiculed me for that. Something I had no complete control over. The only time she said that I was pretty was when I was anorexic and she told me I had a beautiful body shape. I've learned to deal with those issues. I don't really care what they think of me anymore because fitting into their idea of what I should be made me unhappy. It made me so unhappy that it led me into an eating disorder. Everyone in my house is weight obsessed and perfectionist. In my house appearance is everything. I learned to ignore them and their thinking and tune out and do my own thing. I also learned to accept that fact that I don't have to be perfect all the time. I learned that no one is going to cheer me on except for myself. The 18th of every month I celebrate the fact that I beat this eating disorder another month no one else celebrates with me. It's something that I achieved and something I'm proud of in myself.

Thanks, Raquel, for sharing that. I know you have to learn to accept yourself and love yourself, but I guess I have never known that. I don't know what that looks like, for a woman to be healthy and accept herself. I mean, is there such a thing? Aren't we all a little paranoid about our looks, deep down inside? I guess I have just inherited some of the disordered views of my other family members, but that doesn't mean I have to have them forever. I envision myself, in ten years, and hope to be many things...so many more things than just a thin body. I look at older women who are extremely thin (abnormally thin, not just people who are naturally slender) and think, how sad...did they ever really find themselves, learn to love who they are? Why are they starving, literally, to meet the standards of society? I see women in their 40's and 50's with curves and think, they are healthy...they are living life, but they are taking care of themselves too. I hope I can get to that point some day. I don't want to be how my mom was, coming home from work and eating tons of junk food to calm her emotions before puking it all up. But I don't want to be the fat woman who leans on food to comfort her instead of people. What does a healthy woman lok like? Is there a such a thing any more, with so much pressure around us all the time? Maybe we are all a little distorted, and the challenge is to hold on to the things we cared about before weight and being thin and looking good took over our lives so much. There was a time, after all, when such thiings didnt matter...

[Raquel]

Thanks, Raquel, for sharing that. I know you have to learn to accept yourself and love yourself, but I guess I have never known that. I don't know what that looks like, for a woman to be healthy and accept herself. I mean, is there such a thing? Aren't we all a little paranoid about our looks, deep down inside? I guess I have just inherited some of the disordered views of my other family members, but that doesn't mean I have to have them forever. I envision myself, in ten years, and hope to be many things...so many more things than just a thin body. I look at older women who are extremely thin (abnormally thin, not just people who are naturally slender) and think, how sad...did they ever really find themselves, learn to love who they are? Why are they starving, literally, to meet the standards of society? I see women in their 40's and 50's with curves and think, they are healthy...they are living life, but they are taking care of themselves too. I hope I can get to that point some day. I don't want to be how my mom was, coming home from work and eating tons of junk food to calm her emotions before puking it all up. But I don't want to be the fat woman who leans on food to comfort her instead of people. What does a healthy woman lok like? Is there a such a thing any more, with so much pressure around us all the time? Maybe we are all a little distorted, and the challenge is to hold on to the things we cared about before weight and being thin and looking good took over our lives so much. There was a time, after all, when such thiings didnt matter...


Healthy women come in all shapes and sizes. While one woman might be healthy at a size 6 another woman might be healthy at size 12 or 14. I think you're right about us being a society obsessed with looks and weight. I don't think there is anything wrong with caring how you look but it becomes a problem when it crosses those lines of being obsessed with how you look and your motives for wanting to look a certain way. For me, I learned that my body is going to be were it naturally needs to be. I exercise to maintain health but not to look like what society wants me to be. I got this disorder because I was trying to be what everyone wanted me to be and not really allowing myself to do the things that I want do.

[SmilesSoSweet]

It amazing me how our own family members can be so harsh to us about weight, looks, hair color, etc. They're our blood relatives, so obviously we got the same genes! Whatever happened to unconditional love? In my family I was always told I was fat. Without a doubt at every family gathering (even this past Christmas) someone would comment about my weight. The best was when I'd get introduced to other family members or to my sibling's friends and they're like "she's your LITTLE sister?" I look back from ten years ago, when I thought I was really fat as a senior in high school. I wasn't even fat at all. Maybe my actually weight in pounds was high, but I was also a tall kid for my ethnicity and I have very big feet for my height, too. So this whole time in high school I thought I was fat and that guys wouldn't date me, people wouldn't vote for me for president (some skinny girl won, so of course I made the correlation that she won because she was prettier and skinner and I was fat and ugly), etc. I was also on the cheer squad (my pic of that is on my myspace page). I look back at that picture and I wish I was back to that size again! Thanks mom and dad for my self esteem issues! I was the exact same way in college. I thought no guys liked me for the same reason. I gained the freshman 15, sophomore 10, etc. Then I go to Italy for a study-abroad program for three months during my senior year and I drop 22lbs. I gained it all back and then some by the time I graduated six months later. But you know what the comment my dad said to me when I lost the weight? Not the "wow, you've lost weight" but he said, "now you're no longer the fat one, your sister is" (she had gained weight during this time too and was always the skinner one). It's like gee, dad, thanks for the encouragement. Now I'm 27 and I gained back the weight I lost when I was 24. Back then I managed to get down to what I was when I got back from Italy, which was still a good 30lbs more than what I was in high school. Now whenever I go home to visit (which isn't that often anymore now that I live in a different state) I just ignore what my dad says. He still doesn't get it. I even tried talking to my mom (who also has food/emotional and depression issues, just like me, but is too stubborn to admit to it - gee I wonder where I got my issues from :rolleyes: ) told me that my dad won't change. She won't even talk to him about it. I know he won't change, so I won't care what he says.

Okay, I went off the topic, but I needed to vent. I'm hoping this time around when I'm working out and losing weight it'll have a much better outcome.

[wordsmith]

I will never look like society says I should. But I'm happy as long as I'm at a healthy weight. Which for me is about 165 lbs., which I haven't seen in a while. Anything more than that, besides looking less nice, is hard on my body. By taking care of myself, I'll get where I need to be. It's not gonna be what I see in magazines, but oh, well. Healthy, happy women come in many shapes and sizes.

[EggGirl]

I have struggled with my weight and emotional eating issues since I was 7 or so (parent's divorce--mom used M&Ms to cope, so I picked up the habit there). Three years ago, at my highest weight--229 (I'm 5'7"), I decided to join Weight Watchers because a few friends had, and it seemed to work for them.

The story Weight Watchers wants me to say is that in one year I lost 75 pounds, achieved my goal weight, fit into size 8 and 10, and sometimes 6, for the first time, ever. I have maintained that loss, more or less for two years in February.

What they don't want me to share, I think, is that since losing the weight, I struggle constantly with body issues I thought would have disappeared with the weight. It took at least a year and a half for me to realize that I am not fat any more. I still tell people I'm a large or extra large when I really am a medium. I also feel caught in the "if I could only lose 10 more pounds" trap. So I think Weight Watchers is a great, motivating program. It worked really well for me, and I am glad I joined despite my battles. But, it doesn't really address the psychology behind our behaviors and until we address that on our own, maintenance, in my opinion, is futile.

Really, though. I don't mean to be a downer. I love my new shape. I like being a curvy size 10 or 8, and I love how healthy I feel most days. I work out 4-6 days per week, run 5ks, and feel a lot more confident overall than ever before. Sure, I have my bad days or sometimes weeks, but WW provided me with tools to get back on track when I feel myself slipping back to old habits.

What's great about Weight Watchers, too, is their web site. There are mesage boards that provide tons of support. So, if you're ready, I'd recommed joining.

[wordsmith]

What they don't want me to share, I think, is that since losing the weight, I struggle constantly with body issues I thought would have disappeared with the weight. It took at least a year and a half for me to realize that I am not fat any more. I still tell people I'm a large or extra large when I really am a medium. I also feel caught in the "if I could only lose 10 more pounds" trap. So I think Weight Watchers is a great, motivating program. It worked really well for me, and I am glad I joined despite my battles. But, it doesn't really address the psychology behind our behaviors and until we address that on our own, maintenance, in my opinion, is futile.

I hear you on this, and I don't take it as as downer. I actually have shied away from programs that put strictures on what I eat, because I am SCARED of things that make me be super conscious of my food...because I know my personality, and being super conscious is a small step away from obsessing. To be honest, I've been monitoring my food via WW for only a few months, and I can already tell I'm obsessing some, WHICH IS SOMETHING I DO NOT WANT FOR MYSELF, AND I DO NOT ENTIRELY LIKE IT. I would rather be heavier than have an unhealthy fixation with food and my body. I actually wasn't fixated on food UNTIL I started a weight loss program (my issue was that I didn't pay ENOUGH attention), and the fixation I can already feel beginning is something I really just don't want. So, I'm torn. I didn't have body issues before...but I think I could pretty easily get them as a result of losing weight.

[EggGirl]

Yeah, I think counting points does force one to obsess a bit. I actually take weekends off--and just try to eat normal portion sizes so I can feel somewhat "normal"

I once watched a program about weight loss, and a doctor on there said that weight loss isnt' that hard if you're motivated to do it, but keeping it off is the hard part. He said if he could invent a pill to help people maintain he'd be a billionaire. I think he's right.

[shimmer728]

As a former anorexic, I find it absolutely appalling that some of your FAMILY MEMBERS are responsible for perpetuating your body image issues. That is disgusting to me. :mad: I can't say that happened to me--my family was always very supportive.

It's strange, though, because I was always a small girl. Still am. No one ever called me fat or told me I needed to lose weight. I suspect I developed my eating disorder as a result of peer cruelty and bullying, but it was probably a whole host of factors. I've been "recovered" for about eight years now, but the weird feelings regarding food never totally go away. I still experience slight feelings of panic if I feel like I overeat. Not always, but sometimes.

Sorry some of you ladies have had to experience the same thing.

[wordsmith]

Yeah, it's exactly what I was trying to avoid. I kind of knew it would happen. Not too happy about that. But I do need, for my own health, to bring my weight down. So I'm between a rock and a hard place. I never EVER wanted weird feelings with food.

Getting healthy shouldn't GIVE you food issues.

[pisces2473]

Yeah, it's exactly what I was trying to avoid. I kind of knew it would happen. Not too happy about that. But I do need, for my own health, to bring my weight down. So I'm between a rock and a hard place. I never EVER wanted weird feelings with food.

Getting healthy shouldn't GIVE you food issues.
I will admit, I think I'm becoming a little obsessed about my new quest for health.

[wordsmith]

There's got to be some way to maintain balance. This venture shouldn't make me LESS psychologically healthy. Again, I didn't start being more health conscious to TAKE ON weight and food issues I didn't have before. That's no good.

[MetFanL]

I'm right there with you, ladies. I feel LESS secure about my body at this wieght than I did 30 lbs. ago. I worry about everything I put in my mouth and I find myself adding up how much longer I'll have to be on the treadmill to burn it off. It's an unhealthy relationship with food and it scares me, based on my personality and the fact that my brothers and mother have battled anorexia.

[embrassezla]

There's got to be some way to maintain balance. This venture shouldn't make me LESS psychologically healthy. Again, I didn't start being more health conscious to TAKE ON weight and food issues I didn't have before. That's no good.
what i have found is that during the times when i really buckle down and watch what i eat, it becomes really easy to start obsessing. but i think that most of the time, once you reach your goal and are in maintenance mode, the obsessing fades away and you are left with the undercurrents of new eating habits, if you will. for instance, i used to do zone, and even 10 extra carbs at a meal was considered a slip-up if i was following exactly (TEN? that's like a cracker!). however, once i wasn't measuring and calculating all the time, i would eat a cracker and not feel guilty, but i wouldn't really overdo it and eat 10. so i think for most people, those obsessive feelings won't stick around forever.

[wordsmith]

Well, I hope it levels off. I will quit this whole venture if I start becoming a food-and-point obsessed psycho.

It is NOT that important to me to be more slender, if it means my emotional health going down the tubes. I would rather live somewhat overweight than an anxiety-ridden, neurotic mess.

[shimmer728]

I've said this before, but for me, losing weight is addicting. Once I lose a few pounds, then I start getting really neurotic about KEEPING those pounds off. I guess I'm not alone.

[pisces2473]

I'm right there with you, ladies. I feel LESS secure about my body at this wieght than I did 30 lbs. ago. I worry about everything I put in my mouth and I find myself adding up how much longer I'll have to be on the treadmill to burn it off. It's an unhealthy relationship with food and it scares me, based on my personality and the fact that my brothers and mother have battled anorexia.
Yeah, I am definitely getting there. You can read my post where I freaked out b/c I gained ONE POUND. WTF is that???

Oh Met, your brothers battled anorexia too? :(

[pisces2473]

an anxiety-ridden, neurotic mess.
Been there, done that. That's how I lost weight in college.

[wordsmith]

Yeah, I am definitely getting there. You can read my post where I freaked out b/c I gained ONE POUND. WTF is that???

The first thing I did when I got back from my last WW meeting was IM and1, pissed that I gained ONE POUND, Jen.

When I stepped back from it for a minute, I was like...."WAIT...Uh oh. NOT GOOD."

[wordsmith]

Been there, done that. That's how I lost weight on college.

Oh, funny...I lost weight in college by crying in my dormroom over how lonely and homesick I was at mealtime rather than go to the cafeteria. In that case, it was the anxiety and miserableness that made me lose weight, though...not the weight loss that made me anxiety-ridden and miserable. Chicken, egg, which comes first, y'know?

[biodork]

As a former anorexic, I find it absolutely appalling that some of your FAMILY MEMBERS are responsible for perpetuating your body image issues. That is disgusting to me. :mad: I can't say that happened to me--my family was always very supportive.


I used to think it was just me with major issues about eating, stemming from my mom but now i realize that it comes from my grandma, who passed it down to both my mom and my uncle, and I'm pretty sure my brother has issues too. My uncle's wife was talking about how my uncle freaked out because he weighed 10lbs heavier on some scale he stepped on in a store...but he was wearing baggy clothes and a heavy jacket. That made him skip lunch AND dinner that day and work out a ton.

It's really sad. This is part of the reason I don't want kids. I don't want to fuck them up like my mom did to me. I already get on my bf's case sometimes about weight and have to catch myself when I say it.

[Blythe]

Yeah, I think counting points does force one to obsess a bit.I tried WW for like a week or two and was miserable. I was completely obsessed with food and hungry all the time. Normally I don't eat dinner until maybe 7 or so because I wouldn't be hungry until later, but when I was on WW I would be starving and have to eat as soon as I got home at 5. For whatever weird reason I have more success counting calories, but then I don't alway *count*, I just eat a lot of the same foods. South Beach has been SO weird to me, because I feel like I'm just eating and eating and not keeping track of much, but I'm still losing weight.

[SmilesSoSweet]

I thought about joining WW or some other programs. But then I thought that I just can't do it. Some of the foods I eat are culturaly based, and I refuse to give up those foods and go by a more American (for a lack of a better term) menu. I did go to a LA Weight Loss center and spoke with someone there. They wanted the money up front. And that day was when they were running a sale on their plans. I didn't have the money to pay for all of it. And it was more of the well, you can even lose more weight if you buy our energy bars, etc. Then I asked if any exercise is incorporated into this diet plan. They told me that it's only based on portion control and but they don't discourage excerise either.

I had a co-worker that started WW in November. He's been doing really well, but when he told me how much it was a week, I just can't afford that either. I think he was paying about $12 a week.

I'm against all the name-brand type of diets (atkins, weight watchers, south-beach, etc.). But no offense to anyone that does use them. If it works for you, that's great! I guess it's because I know I can do this weight control on my own, but I just need to all the motiviation and encouragement to do so.

I'm doing my own plan - one where I know what I can and cannot eat. I've managed to write down what I've been eating and at what time I've eaten those meals. I'm working out - it's going slow but good, and with my foot problems, slow is a good thing. I've scheduled my own weigh-in days, too. My second one ofthe year will be on Sunday.

And yes, it does suck for the fact my own family members set this insecurity on me. And when I talked to my sister about why I've been depressed and taking meds at the time and I told her it was because of weight issues and family influence she just told me that, well it's always been like why are you still now letting this get to you? As if I can just walk away from the emotional scars my family has given me. I know I'm the only one in my immediate family who could care less about pride and just deal with my everyday issues.

[pisces2473]

SSS--have you tried low carbing at all? If you think you might have PCOS, it might be worth it to give it a shot.

[wordsmith]

Smiles, just so you know, WW doesn't have special foods, and the flex points plan doesn't have food restrictions. You can eat ethnically and still eat according to their plan (if you do the flex points plan, at least...the core plan rules out certain foods, including possibly some of your cultural foods). WW is more a monitoring system than a food plan.

[pisces2473]

SSS--I know this probably is a very sensitive topic, so please know that I mean it in the best way possible...but you might have to give up the ethnic foods that you love b/c they might not be good for you. Or not have them so often. It sucks, I know. :(

[wordsmith]

Or have them in smaller serving amounts.

[SmilesSoSweet]

I refuse to give up rice and pan de sal (Filipino bread), which is why I won't do the atkins diet. I now do eat smaller portions now. As for joining a program such as WW, I simply cannot afford it. I figured that I can do my own monitoring for now. I've realized that with every other aspect of my life, I've been really good at disciplining myself that I just need to figure this out on my own too.

That's for the advice though!

[MetFanL]

Oh Met, your brothers battled anorexia too? :(

Yeah, my mom was just anorexic in colllege and, basically, almost until she got pregnant with me. She still obsesses about her body and stuff, but not to that extent b/c she sees what it did to her metabolism and sees how it hurts her more than helps her.

When my brothers were both at the same college (one was a freshman and the other a senior) they weren't eating properly at all and were exercise anorexics. They both dropped about 50-75 lbs from playing basketball and doing cardio about 3-4 hours a day -- if not more. Then, they slowly started putting muscle and, thereby, weight back on in a healthy way, but the were both about 6'2" 175 which is REALLY thin for their body frames. They're much better now, but they're still really strict with their diets b/c, now that they're out of school, they don't have the time for all that working out.

[glitterchick81]

How weird...I just typed an entry in my blog about how my mum and sister are calling me fat (even though I'm only 140!). My mum literally started forcing me to go on a diet even though I don't NEED to go on one! Anyways...

I'm pretty sure that I'm an emotional eater. My mum and family have ALWAYS said stuff about my weight starting in middle school. My younger sister would never eat as much as I did, so of course they never said anything to her, but I'd always get comments like, "Ohhhh, you're going to get faaat!" and "I'd quit eating if I were you." What.The.Hell?

I'm scared of going on a diet because I'm afraid that I'll end up anorexic/bulimic.

I'm really sorry about a lot of stuff that people have posted about on this thread. People suck sometimes, even if they're family. :cry: