Which road do I take

[Nicholas L]

I'm 29 nearly 30, I graduated with a degree that I don't use. I have an alright admin/ mangers job in the government. I've also been in a relationship for the last 6 years (a gay relationship) everything has been going fine unitl now. I suddenly feel lost, unhappy, but not with my partner with myself. I feel I should leave him but I know I'm not going to be any happier. Alot of our problems stem from recration drugs becoming habital. I want to break the cycle but he does not.
I've tried therapy and prozac but nothing works. I've tried talking to him as he's older than me, but he just sweeps my problems under the carpet and laughs at me and calls me paraniod.
I guess I'm looking for advice or stories from others who feel like this. Am I feeling this as Im nearly 30 or is it something else!!! Help!

[quanyn]

Hi....I think I can understand where you're coming from. Being in a career track that you didn't want necessarily, as well as doing drugs, and the lifestyle along with that, you see yourself as so far from the hopes and dreams you had when you were younger that it's possible you're beating yourself up for not fulfilling those dreams. I think you need to ask yourself what makes you happy? What are the things making you unhappy with yourself? Changing yourself...might lead you to be happier in your relationship. I'm wondering why your partner is stuck on continuing drug use. Is it because he has so much fun with you doing them...is it your only form of recreation together, and without that, you really don't have a lot to do? It's hard to change your whole way of life, it's scary. These are some questions my therapist has asked me...so I'm in a lot of the same problems. Email me if you'd like to chat more....

[Anonymous]