calisa
07-02-2006, 01:03 AM
hi havent posted for a while, but have some new guy issues LOL sorry if long so mad ! :mad:
1. this guy is like my cousin in law?? ( his bro & my cousin r married ).. weve known eachother for a few years now, but only started talking again now.. anyways we just found out that we had feelings for eachother years ago, but during that time he stopped hanging out w me cos he was still in that player stage I guess ( wtf is w that geez ).. and he told me that " I never opened up to him" wtf! (emotionally k lol ) so I eventually got over him back then.. but now y would he bring it up for now and fk with my emotions again??.. plus he has a long time gf.. so y am I being so emotional and like heartbroken all over again?? Do I still have feelings for him n secretly want him to break up w his gf for me??.. cos no matter wat Im always going to see him cos of our families.. n why do I feel like I need closure still? I told him I want to speak to him in person, cos I have all these questions for him from the past.. but my gfs saying I should just leave it??..
2. Guy 2 is an absolute tool. we were sorta set up a few mnths ago by my cousin, hes in a local band and ded a song to me ( i thouhgt it was sweet?), so on our first date he brings me to his band mates house ! and fukn leaves me to talk w some random girls all night !!!.. so strike 1.. and strike 2 he calls me up on valentines to say sorry his game ran late.. and I was all dressed etc fukn hell... So i decided to give him 1 last chance.. so its been ok for the while, weve mostly been just literally going movies every week just hanging out etc, until the other week wen he kissed me.. then the next week it happened again.. and guess wat happened now, hes ignoring me !.. wtf do u guys do that for honestly? once u get wat u want youve already moved on to the next one huh? I dont care, he was like erm a few yrs too young anyways ( guess still in playa stage? ).. but it would be nice to at least be told to my face??.. so i msg him saying we have to talk, and he goes " ok ill call u after work"..this was on friday.. hmmz I didnt know he was staying in the office all wkd??..
fk u guys !
( I know there are decent guys out there doesnt apply to all :)
1. this guy is like my cousin in law?? ( his bro & my cousin r married ).. weve known eachother for a few years now, but only started talking again now.. anyways we just found out that we had feelings for eachother years ago, but during that time he stopped hanging out w me cos he was still in that player stage I guess ( wtf is w that geez ).. and he told me that " I never opened up to him" wtf! (emotionally k lol ) so I eventually got over him back then.. but now y would he bring it up for now and fk with my emotions again??.. plus he has a long time gf.. so y am I being so emotional and like heartbroken all over again?? Do I still have feelings for him n secretly want him to break up w his gf for me??.. cos no matter wat Im always going to see him cos of our families.. n why do I feel like I need closure still? I told him I want to speak to him in person, cos I have all these questions for him from the past.. but my gfs saying I should just leave it??..
2. Guy 2 is an absolute tool. we were sorta set up a few mnths ago by my cousin, hes in a local band and ded a song to me ( i thouhgt it was sweet?), so on our first date he brings me to his band mates house ! and fukn leaves me to talk w some random girls all night !!!.. so strike 1.. and strike 2 he calls me up on valentines to say sorry his game ran late.. and I was all dressed etc fukn hell... So i decided to give him 1 last chance.. so its been ok for the while, weve mostly been just literally going movies every week just hanging out etc, until the other week wen he kissed me.. then the next week it happened again.. and guess wat happened now, hes ignoring me !.. wtf do u guys do that for honestly? once u get wat u want youve already moved on to the next one huh? I dont care, he was like erm a few yrs too young anyways ( guess still in playa stage? ).. but it would be nice to at least be told to my face??.. so i msg him saying we have to talk, and he goes " ok ill call u after work"..this was on friday.. hmmz I didnt know he was staying in the office all wkd??..
fk u guys !
( I know there are decent guys out there doesnt apply to all :)