i just wanna shut my door and cry

[workaholic?]

today has been so...discouraging. i hate coming back to work after long breaks (i took the whole week off for thanksgiving) because i know that i'm going to get back in the mode of feeling like i have no idea what i'm doing. i just get so overwhelmed and i have people pulling me in all directions. and then to top it off, those people continually change their minds about what's important and suddenly the work i've done gets put off for months while someone else's becomes a priority...then i get griped at because my project isn't done when they're the ones who put it off!

Evaluations are coming up and i'm scared to death that because i so vastly overspent or underspent all of my projects i'm going to have disappointed my supervisor, which i really don't want to do because i really like him a lot. i just feel totally inept right now at my job...like my whole year was a waste.

i want to cry.:cry:

[pisces2473]

I feel your pain. I also hate coming back after a break. I feel so...out of it.

[Kitty]

I totally slacked last week and figured I'd just do everything when I got back. So yeah, today is not fun. :(

[wordsmith]

I ordinarily don't like coming back after a couple of days off (which for me was just sat/sun, in addition to the Thursday holiday, but even a sat/sunday combo off is rare for me). But I don't feel like I'm not prepared or whatever. Just like I don't feel like kicking back into gear.

[Tim]

I understand what you are going through, but think about this. . . You realize going into your review where you may stand. That says a lot. It gives you a chance to get things together to combat what might be coming your way. Traditionally when corned, people tend to get defensive and start blaming others. You on the other hand will have a methodical thought out answer that may sound a bit political, but impress your supervisor. Think about ways to suggest improvement. Don’t necessarily volunteer your weaknesses but don’t let him air you out to dry. Most bosses don’t know what to do when confronted with honesty. They might freeze up, or show no emotion during the actual review, but an employee who looks strait in the eye and doesn’t make excuses leaves an impression.

As for the break, I’m sure you deserved it. Enjoy the fact that you were able to reenergize a bit and trust me when I say if you’re crying everyday you go into work, it’s just not worth it.

Hope the review goes well and your supervisor realizes you have the hindsight to see improvement and the foresight to do something about it.