I think I'm having a relapse

[lovesoon1207]

I went through a qlc a while back and I thought I had dealt with things pretty well.Now I feel as though I'm having a relapse.All those old feelings are coming back.

The loneliness is the worst.I have a loving and caring boyfriend.My best friend lives an hour away which isn't too far but it's far enough.And I have another friend who I sometimes get along with.In spite of all of that,I still manage to feel alone.I want to make new friends but I'm not sure how.It's so easy for people to say oh just make new friends but it's not that easy.

I hate the area I live in and wish I had the money to pack up and go.I live in an area that is high in the senior citizen population.My area is known for the many of hundreds retirement communities.Not only that there is a large difference in socioeconomic status.I live in an area that either you're very well-off or you're not.I see many people my age in this area driving fancy sports cars meanwhile I have an 85 buick.

I really miss having someone else besides my boyfriend to hang out with.I especially miss having another girl around...someone to go clothes shopping with or something.Try as he might,my boyfriend will never be a girl.He tries to help me because he knows I'm lonely but it's not the same.I really do miss having friends.The loneliness is starting to get to me.

I'm hoping that by venting I'll feel a little better.I'm trying to reach out to others.That's why I decided to join this board again.I'm looking for that missing piece in my life.Thanks for letting me vent.

[winneythepooh7]

I'm sorry you are going through a tough time. Is your area one, where you could say, start up your own group on Craigslist or something to find some new friends, or at the very least, people to hang out with on occasion? What types of interests do you have? Any professional, college, sorority, etc. affiliations? Maybe you can start something up based around those interests.

[lovesoon1207]

Thanks for the response winney.I've thought about those things.I really don't have many interests.While I was in school,I was very dedicated to my schoolwork.So it didn't leave much time for personal interests.Now I have pretty much done the same thing except now it's my job.I am trying to learn more about myself and cultivate some interests but it's a tough process.Unfortunately...I don't have any affiliations.I'm not a sporty or athletic person so that kind of stuff is out.Nor am I very artistic.So what else is there?Those are the only things I can think of when people mention hobbies.I appreciate your suggestions and I wish I could do those things.

[winneythepooh7]

Well, you did mention wanting to make friends to just go out shopping with or whatever. Why not just start there? Post an ad related to that and see what you get.