CoolAZN
05-18-2007, 05:32 AM
Hello to all! It's been awhile since I have been here. I have been trying to figure out what I want to do with my life, like everyone else here. However, I have been going through some bumpy roads.
Briefly explain what has been going on with my life so far.
I am currently looking for a different job right now, thous not sure what exactly what I want thou. I definately want to get out of retail service sector. The job I have has been praised very highly in the US of A, but this is not my cup of tea anymore; especially working overnight (been in this position for 20 months now). Don't ask me How I SURVIVED! It's been tough. I think it's time to move on. But the whole job search is somewhat on hold thou, you'll know in a little bit. Also, I am going out more and trying to meet/make friends. These past couple of months been the most outing I ever done where I reside now.
Then, there is the other issue from home (yes, I still call my parent's place home; where I grew up most of my childhood life). As some of you recall from previous post in family section about my mom with cancer. Well, she did received three Chemo treatments since February, and it has weaken her, along with some of the cancer. She did have the operation end of April. However, after that, her health started to decline. Last night was the worst. She was put into ICU and my dad had to decide on either to operate or not (some complication during the day) in order for her to stay alive. I just got back into town early evening and was at the hospital at the time with my brother, when my dad had to decide the decision. (yes I saw my mom there being incubated). We went with the operation and the medical team are doing there best to keep her stable. This is really hard to write, but I have to, to tell people here, so they understand what is going on and what this cancer is. As my brother is a doctor, he told me about the probablity of survival of this type of cancer is only about 18% the first year. (my mom knew this before she had the operation and told the doctors not to tell my dad about it, including my brother) It is the Ovarian Cancer and there really is no early detection sign of it, until it is too late in the stage. Which that is where my mom was at. I guess right now, we hope she gets through this ordeal, but she will eventually die from it because it has spread to other parts and the doc could not get it all. When she's better, she has to go back on chemo again. But the probability survival is only five years. So, we are hoping she will recover and live long as she can (she's in her late fifties); there are many things she still have to go through before she gets better. We have to take one day at a time. I think it is really tough on my dad, and my brother and me and rest of the relatives and friends. Though, this is somewhat difficult for me (inside) because I already lost one when I was just a kid. I am glad that I drove up, after work, five hrs on mother's day to see her for half an hr and had to drive back to work. I wish I had stay longer than, when she was happy and suprised to see me in the morning at the hospital; to cheer her up more (:cry:). I made her a picture frame with the only two pictures of me when I was a just a kid. That made her happy. I am sooo sorry for this tragic news, but i just had to talk to someone about what i am going thru. Thank you for all your prays and concerns.
~ Jeremy
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All of my memories, I want to keep them close to my heart, and I want to go on believing. I’m going to hold on, no matter how hard it might be sometimes, I never want to forget, because someday, I will be strong enough. All of the memories that are painful now, they won’t hurt anymore. And when that day comes, I’ll be glad that I have them. Yes, all of my memories are precious to me, every, single, one.
~ By Tohru
Briefly explain what has been going on with my life so far.
I am currently looking for a different job right now, thous not sure what exactly what I want thou. I definately want to get out of retail service sector. The job I have has been praised very highly in the US of A, but this is not my cup of tea anymore; especially working overnight (been in this position for 20 months now). Don't ask me How I SURVIVED! It's been tough. I think it's time to move on. But the whole job search is somewhat on hold thou, you'll know in a little bit. Also, I am going out more and trying to meet/make friends. These past couple of months been the most outing I ever done where I reside now.
Then, there is the other issue from home (yes, I still call my parent's place home; where I grew up most of my childhood life). As some of you recall from previous post in family section about my mom with cancer. Well, she did received three Chemo treatments since February, and it has weaken her, along with some of the cancer. She did have the operation end of April. However, after that, her health started to decline. Last night was the worst. She was put into ICU and my dad had to decide on either to operate or not (some complication during the day) in order for her to stay alive. I just got back into town early evening and was at the hospital at the time with my brother, when my dad had to decide the decision. (yes I saw my mom there being incubated). We went with the operation and the medical team are doing there best to keep her stable. This is really hard to write, but I have to, to tell people here, so they understand what is going on and what this cancer is. As my brother is a doctor, he told me about the probablity of survival of this type of cancer is only about 18% the first year. (my mom knew this before she had the operation and told the doctors not to tell my dad about it, including my brother) It is the Ovarian Cancer and there really is no early detection sign of it, until it is too late in the stage. Which that is where my mom was at. I guess right now, we hope she gets through this ordeal, but she will eventually die from it because it has spread to other parts and the doc could not get it all. When she's better, she has to go back on chemo again. But the probability survival is only five years. So, we are hoping she will recover and live long as she can (she's in her late fifties); there are many things she still have to go through before she gets better. We have to take one day at a time. I think it is really tough on my dad, and my brother and me and rest of the relatives and friends. Though, this is somewhat difficult for me (inside) because I already lost one when I was just a kid. I am glad that I drove up, after work, five hrs on mother's day to see her for half an hr and had to drive back to work. I wish I had stay longer than, when she was happy and suprised to see me in the morning at the hospital; to cheer her up more (:cry:). I made her a picture frame with the only two pictures of me when I was a just a kid. That made her happy. I am sooo sorry for this tragic news, but i just had to talk to someone about what i am going thru. Thank you for all your prays and concerns.
~ Jeremy
_____________________________________________
All of my memories, I want to keep them close to my heart, and I want to go on believing. I’m going to hold on, no matter how hard it might be sometimes, I never want to forget, because someday, I will be strong enough. All of the memories that are painful now, they won’t hurt anymore. And when that day comes, I’ll be glad that I have them. Yes, all of my memories are precious to me, every, single, one.
~ By Tohru