Really fed up...

[victoria]

Hi guys,

Am haveing a bit off a mini crisis today. I feel as though I am at a cross roads and really don't know what to do. I recently got married, I have a 'good' job, but I feel miserable as hell. I have been prone to depressive episodes and am on the lovely prozac too! But at the moment I just feel so out of control, like I'm unable to change anything. I keep ruminating about me and my husband, do I really love him? I don't particulaly enjoy our time together. But is it just because I feel a bit numb emotionaly at the moment? I just feel irritated by him a lot of the time - though feel incredibly guilty for writing this down! Does he really irritate me or is it because I feel depressed and don't get much pleaseure from anything?
I also feel very bored at work. I love the area and am about to take on a huge commitment. But I have started to doubt this too. I feel as though I really don't enjoy anything. I feel hemmed in and trapped. I feel as though I want to just take off and do something exciting, what exactly though I am not sure. Everything just feels so hum-drum and boring......Is it just me though?........sorry to off load all of this to you lot.......:confused:

[Shannon]

dear victoria,
I would say before you run off and do something exciting to try couseling. I know that it is often hard to talk to someone about your feelings but I have found that it helps. I used to be on zoloft and found that the combination of meds and counseling really made a difference in my life. I am no longer on meds and have occasional episodes of depression but nothing like it used to be. counseling would also really help the relationship with your husband. Do you think that he would go with you for couples counseling? I know my boyfriends swears that the person will just take my side and refuses, so that can be tough but it would be worth a try. It can't hurt. I hope that you start to feel better soon. Shannon