Moon Gazing
09-17-2007, 02:55 PM
I work in the office for an electrical contractor so I am surrounded by men on a daily basis. Naturally a lot of them come in the office at the end of the day so I get to know most of them on a friend sort of level.
Well coming up next month will be a year since one of our co-workers passed away and I can still feel the pain of losing him as if it happened yesterday. I still remember his smile, his voice, his laugh, and his face clearly in my mind. I miss him so much!!!! I still have paperwork with his handwriting that I refuse to throw away. His name was Randy and he was 23 years old and father of a 4 year old little boy. There was an attraction between us, we would chat on the internet at night and one time stayed on the phone until 3 am. We were both reluctant to be anything more than friends since we worked together but I would have risked it all in a heartbeat to be with him. I never got the chance though. :(
He didnt show up to work on that Monday and my boss was very close to him so he stopped by his house after work and there was no answer yet his truck was in the driveway. So he broke into the house and found him lying on the kitchen floor dead. We never found out what the cause of death was... there was no alcohol or drugs in his system. A mystery I suppose to this day. So dealing with that did not help my QLC in any way. I kept saying to myself if only I had gotten closer to him maybe I could have somehow prevented what happened. Then I finally realized that maybe I wasnt meant to be with him because God knew it was his time to live in heaven.
The past year has been terrible when it comes to losing co-workers at my place of employment. About three months ago tragedy struck again...
I came in to work and got a call from my boss that 3 of our guys were in an accident on the interstate on their way to the project and one was ejected. A tire blew on his truck and he lost control at 70 mph. The truck flipped into the center median of the highway tossing them around. So here I was facing the death of another co worker that I had just seen the day before. Here one day...gone the next. His name was Manuel and he was 24 years old.
So between dealing with that and everything else in life I am definately at the peak of a major QLC.
Well coming up next month will be a year since one of our co-workers passed away and I can still feel the pain of losing him as if it happened yesterday. I still remember his smile, his voice, his laugh, and his face clearly in my mind. I miss him so much!!!! I still have paperwork with his handwriting that I refuse to throw away. His name was Randy and he was 23 years old and father of a 4 year old little boy. There was an attraction between us, we would chat on the internet at night and one time stayed on the phone until 3 am. We were both reluctant to be anything more than friends since we worked together but I would have risked it all in a heartbeat to be with him. I never got the chance though. :(
He didnt show up to work on that Monday and my boss was very close to him so he stopped by his house after work and there was no answer yet his truck was in the driveway. So he broke into the house and found him lying on the kitchen floor dead. We never found out what the cause of death was... there was no alcohol or drugs in his system. A mystery I suppose to this day. So dealing with that did not help my QLC in any way. I kept saying to myself if only I had gotten closer to him maybe I could have somehow prevented what happened. Then I finally realized that maybe I wasnt meant to be with him because God knew it was his time to live in heaven.
The past year has been terrible when it comes to losing co-workers at my place of employment. About three months ago tragedy struck again...
I came in to work and got a call from my boss that 3 of our guys were in an accident on the interstate on their way to the project and one was ejected. A tire blew on his truck and he lost control at 70 mph. The truck flipped into the center median of the highway tossing them around. So here I was facing the death of another co worker that I had just seen the day before. Here one day...gone the next. His name was Manuel and he was 24 years old.
So between dealing with that and everything else in life I am definately at the peak of a major QLC.