Unregistered
03-11-2002, 06:18 PM
I am so freaking weird, I need to love myself. I need to be happy with who I am. Some days all I can think about is getting out of my marrage. Holy shit! I’m fucking married, when did this happen? Where was I? I was right there... I knew in the back of my head, that this could be all wrong, but I went for it. A jump into the darkness. Whats the worst that could happen? Shit, I can always get a divorce. Most of the married people we know are already seperated, why should I tourture myself like this? Then I’ll start to think that I am really lucky to have a girl like her for a wife - and If I ever left her, I would spend the rest of my life wishing I hadn’t left, comparing all the women I met to her. But, If I stay, then I am always going to wonder what life I could have had. ! But, I know that this doesn’t feel right, and really never has.