crystal_dance
12-29-2007, 09:37 PM
This is a semi-rant, semi-question.
I work in the financial services industry in a finance-technology role. My company is a good firm and one of the few firms on the street that hasn't taken a significant hit from the subprime mortgage mess. The culture is also comparatively relaxed which is a big plus and the pay decent which are just about the only positive things to say.
My problem is that for the last week, I've been worried about my job. My performance evaluations are coming up in January and on Monday my manager out of the blue told me some troubling things. She said that "given that you have a masters degree, done a thesis and have prior work experience I kind've expected more from you. I feel like you're learning to make these reportsfor the first time. Perhaps it's also my fault for having different expectations."
Now this comment has really hurt me, because I've been working under this woman for the past 6 months and I've always felt that I've been doing a great job on my assigned tasks. Infact I'm bored most of the time from being under challenged and not being given meaningful work to do. I've been constantly asking for more analysis work so that I could improve my reports. I've also asked for things I could do other than just making these reports but her answer was "this is what a business analyst does". I've also asked her twice in the last 6 months for feedback on my performance, and how I can improve. The first time she said you're doing fine. The second time she said you need to improve your reports. So I started doing more and more of them. Then oddly enough 2 or 3 weeks ago, during a meeting she asked me how many reports I've done over the last several months. I said I've done 13 and she said wow and was impressed. She said good job and that "over time with practice your reports are getting better." I was pleased and told my colleague about it. Now 2 weeks later she throws this freaking rock in my face by telling me that she's surprised that I haven't done any of this before and that I'm not meeting her expectations. It really really pisses me off because I've put myself out there over the last 6 months trying to improve myself. She accuses me of "misleading on my resume" because I've listed report creation experience on my resume but I appear to be a novice. That's total BS because indeed I've made these reports before but in a totally different style and format than what is being followed in this specific group and I've had to adapt to a totally different style of doing things. Not to mention the fact that I switched business groups so new learning curve.
What should I do guys? Should I start polishing my resume? I'm expecting a medioce review in January and I don't want to wait till I get the pink slip to start job hunting.
I work in the financial services industry in a finance-technology role. My company is a good firm and one of the few firms on the street that hasn't taken a significant hit from the subprime mortgage mess. The culture is also comparatively relaxed which is a big plus and the pay decent which are just about the only positive things to say.
My problem is that for the last week, I've been worried about my job. My performance evaluations are coming up in January and on Monday my manager out of the blue told me some troubling things. She said that "given that you have a masters degree, done a thesis and have prior work experience I kind've expected more from you. I feel like you're learning to make these reportsfor the first time. Perhaps it's also my fault for having different expectations."
Now this comment has really hurt me, because I've been working under this woman for the past 6 months and I've always felt that I've been doing a great job on my assigned tasks. Infact I'm bored most of the time from being under challenged and not being given meaningful work to do. I've been constantly asking for more analysis work so that I could improve my reports. I've also asked for things I could do other than just making these reports but her answer was "this is what a business analyst does". I've also asked her twice in the last 6 months for feedback on my performance, and how I can improve. The first time she said you're doing fine. The second time she said you need to improve your reports. So I started doing more and more of them. Then oddly enough 2 or 3 weeks ago, during a meeting she asked me how many reports I've done over the last several months. I said I've done 13 and she said wow and was impressed. She said good job and that "over time with practice your reports are getting better." I was pleased and told my colleague about it. Now 2 weeks later she throws this freaking rock in my face by telling me that she's surprised that I haven't done any of this before and that I'm not meeting her expectations. It really really pisses me off because I've put myself out there over the last 6 months trying to improve myself. She accuses me of "misleading on my resume" because I've listed report creation experience on my resume but I appear to be a novice. That's total BS because indeed I've made these reports before but in a totally different style and format than what is being followed in this specific group and I've had to adapt to a totally different style of doing things. Not to mention the fact that I switched business groups so new learning curve.
What should I do guys? Should I start polishing my resume? I'm expecting a medioce review in January and I don't want to wait till I get the pink slip to start job hunting.