05-11-2008, 09:40 PM
My heart literally aches. I was seeing this guy for about 2.5 months, then he left to go to military firefighting school in TX (we're from MA) and he was away for about 4 months...he is now back, been back for a week. He has contacted me since his return, we ended our relationship back in March, his drinking was out of control, and long distance just was not working. It hurt then, and I knew it would also hurt when he came back. I know he is no good for me, and I need to let go, but a small part of me wants to see him, I miss him in some ways. I also know that seeing him will be very hard, but seeing him out will be unavoidable, I will bump into him, we live in small towns right near eachother. Even though the relationship was bad, it still makes me sad and it's so hard for me to move on. I feel like I need to properly address this situation before I can move on to other people, isn't that only fair? What do you people think?