Depression?

[Sommer05]

I don't know if any of you have gone through this but I was looking for some feedback on it...I have been feeling incredibly depressed for the past four months. It really came out of nowhere, and I have no real reason to be feeling this way. But my mind will start going crazy and coming up with these crazy explanations about why I'm feeling upset, and it will just snowball from there...Then I get anxiety about really random things...I feel like I'm losing my mind and I'm struggling. Some days I'm fine then others I'll start crying out of nowhere. I thought it would pass, so I didn't opt to see a doctor, but now I know I have to talk to someone. I also have NO sex drive, and nothing makes me happy. What's making things worse is this is supposed to be a really happy time in my life...for once, everything is coming together and a lot of great things are going on. Yet this is the worst I've ever felt. I don't really want to take any meds...has anyone had anything similar like this happen?

[gemma-dahl]

Yeah, I feel you. Mine started in Feb/March, around when the poop began to hit the fan at my job - not gently splatter, as it had before, but full on smashing. I stopped sleeping, stopped eating, and spent every day after work sitting on the couch, wondering if I had the courage to kill myself. It's getting better. It's not easy. Some days are better than others. Yesterday was very bad. Today is good. My sex drive is still missing. I would like to find it. :D

I also have a chemical mood disorder called Bipolar II, which is a pain because I need to be under medical watch. If you met me when I was normal or slightly manic, you'd love me. You'd never meet me when I'm down, though because I wouldn't come out to play. I take a very low dose of an anti-anxiety pill. I have tried lots of other mood stabilizers, but they don't do it for me. This wee pill and talk therapy are a great combo for keeping me reasonably sane. My doc thinks most of my issues stem around anxiety. I tend to agree. My current "assignment" is to read "Feeling Good" by Dr. David Burns. It is a wonderful book. If you are the type who likes to read about your problems and work through them, I really suggest you check it out.

Please seek help. I see a doctor on a sliding-scale fee. I found her through a medical placement service for uninsured people. Does your town offer something like that?

Take it one day at a time. It is never easy, but that's what help is for.

[lostnotyetfound]

I can definitely sympathize and relate. Although I have many reasons for my depression. I don't think I have ever been content and for awhile now I've been feeling extremely hopeless about life in general. Definitely try talking to someone and see if that helps. Good luck.

[evy031]

I was afraid to take meds at first, too. However, they are really not bad. 4 of the 5 members of my family take or have taken some antidepressants (including my mom, the doctor) and it has helped us all out. It doesn't make you feel queasy or anything, and you definitely don't "lose your mind" because of them. I know these things are different for everybody, and I think counselling is the best first step but just wanted to throw my thumbs up out there for antidepressants. BTW, I take Lexapro and Clomipramine, my sister is on Zoloft and my mom takes Wellbutrin.

[AsianGeek]

I don't know if any of you have gone through this but I was looking for some feedback on it...I have been feeling incredibly depressed for the past four months. It really came out of nowhere, and I have no real reason to be feeling this way. But my mind will start going crazy and coming up with these crazy explanations about why I'm feeling upset, and it will just snowball from there...Then I get anxiety about really random things...I feel like I'm losing my mind and I'm struggling. Some days I'm fine then others I'll start crying out of nowhere. I thought it would pass, so I didn't opt to see a doctor, but now I know I have to talk to someone. I also have NO sex drive, and nothing makes me happy. What's making things worse is this is supposed to be a really happy time in my life...for once, everything is coming together and a lot of great things are going on. Yet this is the worst I've ever felt. I don't really want to take any meds...has anyone had anything similar like this happen?


I think you need to be more specific about your life to make it easier to analyze your situation. My take on it is that since everything is going well, do you feel that you have nothing left to accomplish? Do you feel like you're just going through the motions in life and that it's the same thing every week? Are you feeling really empty as if you can't really justify your existance? Do you feel really mediocre as if there's nothing special about your life.

Perhaps analyzing why you're unhappy is the first step to finding a solution.

[artemis83]

I'm going through the same thing right now and wondered if it's bipolar or my past history of generalized anxiety and mild depression reoccuring. I like how asiangeek put it best, WHY am I feeling this way? I'm so against taking any antidepressants cause I've been there, done that.

[erika36]

I too can sympathize with depression. I'm going through another spell of it right now because nothing in my life is going right. :cry:

[misscasey]

I know exactly how you feel. I have had depression and anxiety off and on for years. I just recently started taking Cymbalta and I couldn't be happier with it! I no longer have physical pains in my body, nor do I feel sad or anxious anymore. I feel like I should...normal! I suggest you checking this out with your doctor. Beware though...the first week or two taking the med you will feel tired and completely out of it, as well as nauseas. I promise this goes away if you continue taking it!!! Also, I started taking it at night b/c it was making me too tired in the day...but each person is different and my mom, who is also on it, says it wakes her up. Hope this helps!

[roulettefanatic]

hey, sorry you are going through this.....i think there are two situations where someone can feel depressed (among others)....one is where everything seems to be good from the viewpoint of an outsider, so as an example someone has a gf/bf, a group of friends, a nice family, a well-paying job, their own place and car and anything else that is considered normal and good but on the inside that person isn't really satisfied or content with what they have, although others would love to be in their position.....and the other one is where someone is having trouble making friends, finding a significant other, has estranged family, and is dissatisfied with their work.....obviously you would expect the second person to be more vulnerable to depression but as we know, this is not always the case and that's what's scary about this....if it's an imbalance, then medication is sometimes necessary although i myself will admit it's not my first choice......how about exercise? i keep giving people suggestions but honestly i'm having a rough time myself with trying these things....when i get home from work all i want to do is stuff myself with food and watch tv since this is literally the only comfort i have right now....things are tough for a lot of people but everyone has their own way of handling it.....talking to someone will definitely help i think.....there's nothing to lose.....

[artemis83]

that is so true! You have no idea how many people asked me why I'm on antidepressants, I don't seem depressed. I guess I put on a great show of acting confident when it's really all forced.