moonstars
11-15-2009, 10:31 PM
The first time that I've posted here was in 2005 and I can say that some
things changed for me career wise. Back then I was unemployed and remained unemployed until the fall of 2006. Then I managed, with the help of an employment counselor to get some temp jobs. After all ended he simply told me to get employment insurance instead of helping me further. All he was telling me was to apply to that new call center in town. I knew that it wasn`t the type of job that I wanted to do so I told him that I wasn`t interested.
Then I went through another long period of unemployment, almost as long as my first one. I came to a point were I needed some money, fast. So I decided to bite the bullet and applied to work in a call center as a customer service representative but at a place that was already established. At the same time I also applied to work as a project manager in a consultant firm. I knew that I wasn`t qualified but I still tried. I ended up getting the job at the call centerin August 2008. I also got a call the same day, the owners of the consultant firm offered me a assistant position. I was the first on their list and the job would start in January 2009.
In October 2009 I was contacted by the consultants asking me if I was still interested in the assistant job. Off course I was. I would work in a quiet environment and wouldn`t deal with angry customers, which would be great. I accepted and give my 2 weeks notice. As an assistant I was going to do some research and also administrative work like bookeeping. I was happy that I would leave that call center forever, I was feeling that it was the end of my QLC. If only I knew what would happend next.
Trying to dealing with bookeeping with little tranning was hell. I was never to good with numbers in the first place. I became really fearful of losing my job because of that. I'm already a perfectionist, in the negative sense of the word, and it made evrything worst. I was so afraid of making mistake. Finally my boss told me that I would stil have my place even if I wasn`t doing some bookeepng. I would be given more research to do. Then after about 5 months and a half they decided to do my review. My boss met me in my office and basically told me that I was fired. She told me that I wasn`t experienced enough to work on most of their projects. She told me that the call center were I worked were looking for new employees and that I should apply there.
And that`s the first place that I went for a job. I was back exactly where I was less than 6 months before and I've been there for almost 7 months now. I can tell you that I really dislike my job. I just feel a bit guilty about wanting to leave because they took me back after I lost my job this spring. This job is not fitting my personnality at all. I don`t like to speak to people all day long, I hate to be screamed at. Of course it`s not something to be taken personnally but still, I hate it. I don`t want to argue with people but I have to do that everyday.
There are days, the last weeks, were I cried before going to work because of that. I'm so afraid that I'm going to have a burnout and end up on antidepressants. Medications of course help a lot of people but I read about their side effects. The last thing that I want is to gain 20-30lb because that would not help me. I work out a lot so it would be a slap on my face (sorry had to vent about that). At the same time I'm happy during my time off so it tells a lot, I need another job.
So my QLC is ongoing. Instead of being about unemployed, it`s about my job. I just wish to find something else soon. In the meantime I just need to remember something my coworker told me : Do your best **** the rest.
things changed for me career wise. Back then I was unemployed and remained unemployed until the fall of 2006. Then I managed, with the help of an employment counselor to get some temp jobs. After all ended he simply told me to get employment insurance instead of helping me further. All he was telling me was to apply to that new call center in town. I knew that it wasn`t the type of job that I wanted to do so I told him that I wasn`t interested.
Then I went through another long period of unemployment, almost as long as my first one. I came to a point were I needed some money, fast. So I decided to bite the bullet and applied to work in a call center as a customer service representative but at a place that was already established. At the same time I also applied to work as a project manager in a consultant firm. I knew that I wasn`t qualified but I still tried. I ended up getting the job at the call centerin August 2008. I also got a call the same day, the owners of the consultant firm offered me a assistant position. I was the first on their list and the job would start in January 2009.
In October 2009 I was contacted by the consultants asking me if I was still interested in the assistant job. Off course I was. I would work in a quiet environment and wouldn`t deal with angry customers, which would be great. I accepted and give my 2 weeks notice. As an assistant I was going to do some research and also administrative work like bookeeping. I was happy that I would leave that call center forever, I was feeling that it was the end of my QLC. If only I knew what would happend next.
Trying to dealing with bookeeping with little tranning was hell. I was never to good with numbers in the first place. I became really fearful of losing my job because of that. I'm already a perfectionist, in the negative sense of the word, and it made evrything worst. I was so afraid of making mistake. Finally my boss told me that I would stil have my place even if I wasn`t doing some bookeepng. I would be given more research to do. Then after about 5 months and a half they decided to do my review. My boss met me in my office and basically told me that I was fired. She told me that I wasn`t experienced enough to work on most of their projects. She told me that the call center were I worked were looking for new employees and that I should apply there.
And that`s the first place that I went for a job. I was back exactly where I was less than 6 months before and I've been there for almost 7 months now. I can tell you that I really dislike my job. I just feel a bit guilty about wanting to leave because they took me back after I lost my job this spring. This job is not fitting my personnality at all. I don`t like to speak to people all day long, I hate to be screamed at. Of course it`s not something to be taken personnally but still, I hate it. I don`t want to argue with people but I have to do that everyday.
There are days, the last weeks, were I cried before going to work because of that. I'm so afraid that I'm going to have a burnout and end up on antidepressants. Medications of course help a lot of people but I read about their side effects. The last thing that I want is to gain 20-30lb because that would not help me. I work out a lot so it would be a slap on my face (sorry had to vent about that). At the same time I'm happy during my time off so it tells a lot, I need another job.
So my QLC is ongoing. Instead of being about unemployed, it`s about my job. I just wish to find something else soon. In the meantime I just need to remember something my coworker told me : Do your best **** the rest.