cazort
04-20-2004, 11:15 PM
I've had my own business for over a year and I've seen it grow into a success after struggling for months. And I give up. I hate it. I'm miserable.
I just can't handle some of my clients. My biggest client constantly puts me in a bind by not following my advice, and by wanting to spend less on projects than I recommend, thus forcing me to do things that don't fill all their needs.
I hate working alone. When I started I was doing a lot of little projects for home users for $15-$35 an hour. Now I have these big projects for companies for $50 an hour...but I hate it. I hate working alone, I go absolutely insane. One client was so mad at me they wanted their money back. A lot of clients love me and recommend me to others...but then some of those new clients turn out to be headaches. Some clients waste lots of my unbillable time and make me have to be mean and shut them up or give them a hard time.
It's compounded by the fact that I have not been able to form a supportive social life here. I've found it so hard to find the sort of friends who can actually be there for me and provide support, who I can rant to about my business clients--so instead I shoulder the burden all myself until I become crushed.
Today I exploded to my biggest client in an e-mail--basically ending my business. I said I was fed up with them being cheap and that the way they managed their business was unprofessional, that they have consistently been unfair to me and put me in one difficult situation after another, and that I was fed up with dealing with them and they could find someone else to do their stuff. I left off in the middle of two projects so I know they're going to be mad. They had recently contacted me saying they only wanted to spend a max of $900 on a system which would be very very time consuming to develop--meaning I either had to do a shitty job, or do some of it as volunteer work.
So here I am... back to looking for a job. I just need support. I don't know how to get any support. I'm all on my own...I am freaking out...help!!!
I just can't handle some of my clients. My biggest client constantly puts me in a bind by not following my advice, and by wanting to spend less on projects than I recommend, thus forcing me to do things that don't fill all their needs.
I hate working alone. When I started I was doing a lot of little projects for home users for $15-$35 an hour. Now I have these big projects for companies for $50 an hour...but I hate it. I hate working alone, I go absolutely insane. One client was so mad at me they wanted their money back. A lot of clients love me and recommend me to others...but then some of those new clients turn out to be headaches. Some clients waste lots of my unbillable time and make me have to be mean and shut them up or give them a hard time.
It's compounded by the fact that I have not been able to form a supportive social life here. I've found it so hard to find the sort of friends who can actually be there for me and provide support, who I can rant to about my business clients--so instead I shoulder the burden all myself until I become crushed.
Today I exploded to my biggest client in an e-mail--basically ending my business. I said I was fed up with them being cheap and that the way they managed their business was unprofessional, that they have consistently been unfair to me and put me in one difficult situation after another, and that I was fed up with dealing with them and they could find someone else to do their stuff. I left off in the middle of two projects so I know they're going to be mad. They had recently contacted me saying they only wanted to spend a max of $900 on a system which would be very very time consuming to develop--meaning I either had to do a shitty job, or do some of it as volunteer work.
So here I am... back to looking for a job. I just need support. I don't know how to get any support. I'm all on my own...I am freaking out...help!!!