venting...life sucks

[jjfaeries2000]

I'm new to QLC and need to vent about life in general. I graduated from college 5 years ago and I'm only 26. i wish i had gone about the whoel college experience differently. i was all gung ho about getting done so i took summer school starting the summer i graduated high school and every summer there after so i actually completed my degree in 3 years. I didn't make any friends at all! b/c my roommate was a friend from high school (big mistake!!!!) and we both had boyfriends from home. After the first year I moved out by myself and dumped the loser boyfriend, so there I was, by myself, no friends to speak of except one from home who never moved away but started a family instead. No parties, no friends to hang out with, my sister lived in town so I spent all my time with her. I finished school with a BS in Criminal Justice. COMPLETELY USELESS DEGREE IN MY OPINION!!!!!!!!!! thought i wanted to be a cop but in the small town where I am, blonde hair and blue eyes don't fit well into the good 'ole boys club. Found a job that I LOVE working with kids in a treatment facility. Made and lost a few friends there. The only problem with the place is that 99% of my co-workers are all 21-24 years old and still into the party/bar scene. So my social life still sucks unless i want to surround myself with drunken college kids at the bars. I was the cliche' single girl living alone with two cats. i've added a roommate and a puppy to the mix so it's not too bad now. Anyway, as far as the school/job goes, i've tried grad school twice. I wasn't smart enought apparently (stupid GRE scores) to go to my undergrad school so i started an online program that quickly fizzeld out because I have no self-discipline...so much tv, so little time....
So right now I'm in a job I love but will soon max out on the pay and I DON"T want to retire from the place. 1-2 friends max! no joke! and the roomate will be moving out in January b/c she graduates and will be starting her life:(
I would love to do so many things but all that takes money and for some reason my landlord frowns on not paying rent every single month? can't make enough money to pay all the bills and save or else i'm jsut not doing it right! Well, thanks for taking the time to read. Feel free to reply with a swift kick in the a**(cause that's what i really need) or any other helpful comments/advice.

Julie--

Hold my head up when my head won't hold on~DMB

[Phoenix]

Welcome to the boards, Julie!

It seems to me from your post that you're lacking motivation and/or a direction. For example, you mentioned that you tried grad school twice and then an online program. Do you really have a strong desire to go back to school or are you going back b/c you don't know what else to do? If it's the latter, it's not a wonder you're not pursuing that path anymore. If you don't have something you're extremely passionate about, you will lack the motivation to complete it.

Is there anything in your community you can do (which doesn't cost a lot of money) where you can meet some people? For example, a book club? Community school classes at a local high school?

[bigboom]

blonde hair blue eyes huh? :D just kidding

ok but seriously have you given any thought to moving out of the "small town" you currently reside in to a bigger city where they may be more opportunities for you to make use of your degree? it seems like a big part of your problem is the geographical location. but if you are keen on staying where you are then try getting involved in sports ors oemthing? they usually get you active and meeting people.