I'm Still A Kid......

[chrissie]

I'm sitting here eating day old pizza and drinking Green Tea (it's supposed to help you remember or make you have more energy, I don't know I can't remember). If you haven't figured it out I'm a crack-head, crazy, loco in the coco and how you doin?
So I just graduated from college in 2000 and I haven't got a clue as to what I was sent here to do?
Somehow I always feel like playing games or handball -- that I'm always sure of!
I'm a kid with a Bachelor's degree and somehow I have to be an adult. You know what I think of when I hear the word "ADULT"? A person in their thirties taking the subway wearing a Prada suit (she's got style) and sneakers, going to a job she doesn't even like but pays the bills and works 9-5 everyday. BORING.. So not me.
I'd much rather go to the park or even read a book--rather than go to a job I hate and feels like a chore.
Is there anyone who feels this way I know I'm not alone because this website is here. I want to go back to when I was in grammar school and had no responsibility.
HELPPPP!!!!

[Anonymous]

Well...as much as u would like to pretend u are not growing up...the reality is that u are!
Everyone wishes they could turn back time and make everything the way it "used to be" but here are the brutal realities~ you are growing up and you are an adult now. The question becomes, how are you going to make a difference in the world and make your life into something you enjoy. And hopefully u will wake up every day thanking God for the position your in! Everyone our age is going through pretty much the same thing, thats why this site was formed, Im sure! We're all in this and we're not alone. Sooner or later we will find our own way and make it on this Merry-go-round we call life! Keep your head up, things will work out! /phpBB/images/smiles/icon_smile.gif

[chrissie]

Thank you so much for the encouraging advice. The problem with me is that I can give advice but somehow don't want to listen to what I've been saying.
I wish it didn't have to be so hard, but then again, it's life and you deal with the cards you've been dealt with!
Thanks again for your response, "Anonymous"!!

[Taminator]

I can totally relate. I'm 24 and just recently quit my job for various reasons (long long story). I sometimes feel alone b/c I got my masters degree at 23 when most of my friends were still finishing up their undergraduates. My co-workers were all much older than me and they were stuck in a rut too, only I didn't have the family and all that other stuff to keep me there longer than I needed to be. Anyway, last Friday was my last day at work and I was sooo happy to tell my director that I'm quitting and that I didn't have another job lined up. Everyone thought I was crazy. I feel great. I've never been happier and there is life outside of your first job. BUT you are right, I'd rather be sitting by the pool reading a book than go to work. Would be nice if we all were trust fund babies.

[chrissie]

Taminator you are crazy. So now what are you doing with yourself--besides shopping and sleeping?
I look up to you but I'm not as, what's the word, spontaneous as you are. I have health benefits at my job and that's the only thing keeping me there. Oh, and the hot guys that walk into the office (I work at a college phys ed office):) that's always a plus!
Thanx for writing me.
Talk soon!

[Abigail]

Boy am I sure glad I found this book at the bookstore today. I was really floundering. I still am, but I feel better knowing I'm realyl not going nuts and am not alone. God this sucks. I really AM still a kid.. my boss keeps trying to tell me that I'm an adult now (we're friends, she's 29 and very cool, but I just don't have that desk-job ambition that she does, I can't stand it..) and I keep on resisting. I act like I'm 10 at the office when it's just us.. I sit on the floor, I shoot rubber bands at the younger people (sons and daughters who work there who are in their college years - I just graduated in May but have been working part-time in my office for well over a year..), I make faces at people when the adults arent' looking - I reactly rather violently to everyone insiting I have to grow up. The office is such a stuffy place! I can't stand being cooped up in there every day! I hate wearing heels all the time and carrying around a legal pad, and making calls to clients and putting on that tolerant friendly business voice.. A month ago I was in Italy reading Fitzgerald, drinking wine in an outdoor cafe - now I'm chained to my desk. People keep saying "just stick it out a year" or for as long as I can stand it - build up a "nest egg".. but every day it sucks the life out of me. I want to play, too, damnit, and half my friends are still in school and are working crap summer jobs but they know it's temporary because come September they're back in lecture, and I'll be miserable at my office. This is completely miserable.. I'm not even doing anything remotely in the field in which I got my degree (Classics),and on top of it all they want me to act like an adult.. Where did my precious youth go???

[Anonymous]

I'm so there with you Abigal (ok that's spelled wrong, sue me, I'm an idiot). Each day when i walk into that prison building called my office I cringe when i take a breath of that stale, lifeless air. And man, how do these people keep working in these desk jobs where all you do all day is eat donuts and get fat? I mean, is there a point where people say, ' You know what? Skip it. I give up on all my dreams and will settle into this nice office job." Hey, quarterlife people! Is this what I have to look forward too? When I just throw in the towell and say, "Ah forget it. Where do I sign my life away."

I'm a kid. 24 years old is pretty young and too me, anything I do to piss off the elders at work makes me smile (I'll make faces at them, be a smartass, whatever). Its too bad too. Because I'm very good at what I do and I can't stand doing it. I can only imagine how good I'd be at a job I actually like.

At any rate, if it makes you feel better, on Monday August 20th, at 2:00 pm CST, I'll get up from my desk, smile, and stick my tongue out at anyone whose around me in my own little rebellious action. Join me? Good luck being a kid when everyone else is trying to make you age before your ready!

[Anonymous]

Here's to the Kid left in all of us....keep he/she alive ....

[quanyn]

Hi Kids........guess what......another one here. Actually now that I'm 26....I prefer to call myself a muse, because people are quite amused at the ways that I fail to grow up. My first lesson would be to find all new friends, all very much younger than yourself. Older people tend to not be as fun and carefree. AT WORK -- Your bosses will keep you because you're so much fun, and as long as you make the office interesting, your job is secure. (I've mastered this one) At home....I moved back in with my parents so that I would have absolutely no responsibility in anyhting but getting up and going to work. I spend most of my evenings talking on the phone with my long distance boyfriend (4 years younger than myself and much more fun than any boys my age) I spend my paychecks on having fun on the weekends, and I don't really give a lot of thought to saving...or anyhting else, until it all catches up to me. Then I cry for a few days that I'll never have the same things as everyone else my age.....but then again, they can't have my fun either.

[Goodgrief]

[Anonymous]

[Anonymous]

I just turned 24 and feel like a kid as well. How can I compete with "real" adults? I'm not up to their standards in any arena. I kept thinking I had time for exploration and mistakes and practice, but the truth is, if I wanted to be successful by now, I should have been planning my career in detail since the age of 15. I hate becoming an adult before I've ever really enjoyed being a kid, though--I had a troubled adolescence and earned my MA at 22; I haven't spent time slacking off and trying new things. Working might force me to accept my age, but, after leaving grad school in 2000, I never found a job, though not for lack of trying. The economy is forcing me into perpetual adolescence--I don't have the purchasing power, health insurance, or daily schedule of the typical college-educated American adult, so how can I feel like one?

[juliebean]

Even though it was posted a long time ago, I am totally in agreement with Abagail.
I sit in my office job day after day, precisely 8:30 to 4:30, practically with my eyes rolled back in my head.
This is not what I thought I would be doing with my life!!
My other friends all work in restaurants and clubs, they never went to college or anything and they seem to be having the time of their lives!!
I thought this was the path that would lead me to happiness, but I guess that was someone else's dream - not mine!
I am 25, and feel completely stuck in this rut. I'm not even doing a very good job here anymore, because I've stopped caring.
I can't believe everyone here, seems to really be interested in what they are doing! It's so monotonous.....
Anyone else feel the same way??