do you ever just get so low?

[artbabe]

that you feel like you're gonna cry...over everything wrong in your life?

god that's how i feel today. i want to leave town and start anew.
this sucks.

i feel so bad.

i'm sorry a lot of you on here think i'm bitchy or overly opinionated...

truth is, i'm miserable.

i'm not in love with anyone...and no one thinks i'm special...

i'll count my blessings in the next post...

right now i just don't feel like it.

[artbabe]

thanks...i wish i didn't feel the need for a guy.

[hopeless]

Yeah, I've been through those low points before. I get it through by crying, yelling, screaming, whatever it takes to cope. I know this may sound bad, there are times when I'm depressed that I go to the mall & buy something just to make me feel better, of course that good feeling doesn't last very long.

[hopeless]

When I buy something after awhile I'll either regret getting it or not. It depends what I get.

[natbumpo]

I feel like that all the time, right now included. I interviewed for a job today, it would be an awesome job but, I think I sucked and I think if I get the job I'll be just as miserable as I am right now, so what's the point.

I guess my biggest issue is that I always feel hopeless, like nothing in the world is ever going to work out for me and I'm destined to be a failure and die alone.

[hopeless]

I hardly never return the stuff I buy. Sometimes what I get I've been waiting for some time & can afford it then I'll get it.

[Ederratic]

I know how you feel.

Early 2004 I started counting up how much it would cost to relocate and how quickly I could sell off my stuff. Frustration, sadness, lack of stimulation, no interest in the women around me and vice versa. I wanted to start over...

Couldn't sabotage school though so I stuck it out and made it through 2004 ok. Starting to have a relapse now that the girl I had been chasing, and that has been chasing me, opted for her ex. Half the social life I had through the latter part of 04 was instantly shut down.

My friends have been uber supportive but...

Going to see a counselor about depression tomorrow.

[aquafina]

thanks...i wish i didn't feel the need for a guy.

I feel you there. Sometimes I feel like even though other things in my life may be going well, that I can never be 100% happy unless I am in a relationship. I've definately spent more time single than in long-term relationships, so I guess I'm just at the point like, "okay, I'm ready now.." The truth is, it's so much worse when you're "looking" for love. Like going to bars and doing a quick scope of the prospects there, or anywhere for that matter. Everytime I have met someone, it has been at the most random and unexpected time. My "low" times come when I dwell on not having someone, but I've gotten alot better at this. It seem's stupid to dwell on something that you don't have much control over.